My Ode to 2009

sooooo. mr.2009 ?
you are leaving. walking out of all our lives & never to be see again.
truth is , i wont miss you. nope...

there was too much i went through , so much pain to be felt , laughter shared, tears in the night and anger in my fists. the feelings were immense, my actions were insane. 2009 brought me stress, strain and failure but it also made me realize a few things about myself...more than a few. i will remember 2009, but i wont miss it. that's like asking to go back in the past for a 2nd chance and change things that were inevitable.

#in the year 2010
- i will turn 18 years young. "adult" in legal terms. this brings on so much responsibility that many do NOT understand, but in the eyes of our elders.they are watching us , slowly dropping their hands and help. our parents see our habits and progress. our mothers birthed us with hopes we will make them proud. 18 years of age? i figure its time to cut my bullshit out before it bites my own ass a few years from now. that's why i am not a NEW girl , just an IMPROVED woman. i can only hope these people take me seriously from here on out. if you could UNDERSTAND where im coming from? you'd understand why i am speaking like this now. life is not about the money and cars... set a flame to that? and its gone. time to grasp the meaning of this life before it fades, all it takes is 1 second to lose it all.

not only will i be a legal adult( not that the title changes me that much, im already beyond my years), i will be graduating from school, be a godmother, have my car(very soon) & be moving on from my bad habits. no longer will they break me, ive learned better and have seen the outcome. not a good look.

in terms of love&relationships? my emotions have been played with too much so i'll be on the lookout for that one. the one who can change my mind about love and who has his head on straight like a gentleman instead of a dumb fool that loves my body before my mind.

i will remain calm, open-minded & humble towards whatever occurs from here on out. i will continue to praise God with my life for giving me another day , another second of breath because i dont take that for granted , when you are blessed and blind - your success will not survive. i dont owe it to society to be thankful, only man i can thank is the Lord for how far i've come .. wow.

so, 2009? i send you on your way with a million kisses & embrace 2010 with open arms.
xoxo.

- Jadalyn Hollywood

UPDATES :)

Good Morning/Good Night,

HOW U DOIN ;) i hope your Christmas was most enjoyable. first off folks ! i just need to thank God for all the blessings and amazinggggg people in my life. just being able to wake up & breathe life is a blessing in itself? money can never fulfill my happiness or no amount of gadgets and kicks or cds and gear.

only places where my joy came from this holiday season?

- keeping my faith
- speaking with true friends & friends from my past

that shit kept me grounded! lets just say im satisfied with all i received! ;)

also. guess what? IM A GODMOTHER =)
of my sweet baby cousin Dalton
- meeting him in 2 weeks. cannot waaait - he's already makin my days better(with new death always comes new life)

so tomorrow lookin like?

BOXING DAY SHOPPING. hellllller??
hunting some sexxy shit baby with reasonable price tags. so wish me luck on my expedition *crosses fingers *

before i sleep, just want to announce. im feelin like im back and found myself again, i've given myself enough time to heal with my grief and depression. its still there & my heart still hurts but im getting by !

sweet dreams babylove,

- jada xoxo

What it do ?

Good Evening.

Today has been one hellllllll of a day. Actually the past 3.
I won't get into major details. But all I can do is put my trust
in God, not the ways of man. Trying to stay strong through this stress.
Hope your day has been amazing foreals mayne : )

smooches.

attention!! :

i need to get a few facts straight with a couple people. cause before you sit there on, the other end of your fucking computer screen. understand things first and prove to me you are not an ignorant small-minded dumbass.

i speak the truth because my word is my bond.

- dont categorize me into some small fuckin boxx. i am not just a "lightskin" with real hair
- dont call me a slut, whore, sluu ting, waste cyattie because :
a. i havent even made out with a guy much less fuck him!
b. i havent sucked a dick
c. my pussy hasnt been licked
- never had true love
- i have bipolar depression
- people fuck with my emotions WAAYYYY too much
- i lost my truee daddy (gramps) this year
- my stepdad is fuckery
- im alone most of the time, im an only child ( but i dont invite boys to my house sorry )
- i dont give a fuckkk about who you fucked or sucked. keep that on the low
- im tryna live my dreams out..with or without help

see what i mean ? that aint even the half. put a zipper on your lips
im not a bitch. i have bare love for people, i love the Lord,
im a GOOD chick. a good gorgeous classy koool ass chick
thats why they envy me mayneee
i been tryna tell yall.
none other above me.

yaa girl is out
-jadalynHollywood.