this been sick since 92'

blindfold on the people with a curse on society
drunken individuals robbed openly of sobriety
no excuse for the lying schemes
how could i possibly be in a place such as this?
you think im runnin the rat race?
i cant walk amongst the double faced
thats why i put my faith in a higher ace
life is hella sour but ill aim for the finer tastes
judged and told i wouldn't make it, my actions worthless
i debate, i argue & i rise against the merciless
who has the S on they chest? we seek saviors for our rainy days
the many ways of rotten habits, naa they wont ever change
we cant judge each other for what we caused
how greed on our minds, we are blind just because
the only fallen star under the sun, So Jada's left to be the one
to lead the folks to the lodge & preach my knowledge
the complications simplified by ones who acknowledge
realize pure truth and real beauty in natures own making
i inhale oxygen amongst cyborg's in the faking ...

poww! poww!
- jada jada jada jada

staying above the tidal waves.. .

i am alone , isolated and here by myself. my friends have left, my family is no longer. drowning in my own emotions .. life seems hard. well.. life is hard & im learning to accept that , accepting that not everyday will be sunshine and laughs. some days we cry , we shout and swear , some days we want to end our lives.

admist my trials and tribulations?

im learning to love life again and realize everything thrown at me is God given
he wont put me through anything i cant handle,
it just me not realizing my own strength
thats why from here on out, 2010 will allow me to be a better me
strive harder for goals and let go of the bullshit people i been with
i been struggling with depression and for the first time i feel .. its gone?
its been 2 weeks since a real episode and thats honestly a blessing
right now, i dont mind not having friends (even though i seem popular enough ) ,
i feel like everyones fake
id rather stick to myself, get my 90s in class and be on with life
it is not about the facebook or the twitter or msn
or cell phones and how many PINS you got ?
its much more than all these things we idolize ...
at this time in my life , im just being tested to see how strong my faith is
now is the perfect time to give God glory and praise for my struggle andddd successes
i am nothing without him
nobody truly understands me or what im about or where i been ? and honestly
im tired of trying to make you understand
i have nothing to prove to anybody , not my pride or my clothes or makeup or whatever
i just stopped caring
time to put my self-worth on a shelf and
aim for the stars
because if you believe in yourself - you can become great
instead of drowning in a sea of pity,
stay positive
and keep your head
above water... .



peace & love - jada hollywood

changes in my life

if eyes are the window to the soul
maybe you'd discover my stories untold
behold, see hear and know
dont speak .. no dont make a sound
dont interfere with the message in the making
the story i've been faking
my fate, the time and dates
sometimes im early, most im late
yet i still grasp at it , still moving forward
Lord knows...
times like this can be too much to bear
but that twinkle in my eye shows no fear
can you hear? draw near
nearer to me and my voice
admist the situations i always had a choice
i made bad ones its obvious, its true
now its time to rid my wrong
and paint my red with blue
and turn the old into new
cause i cant possibly sustain this way
lead me out and ill swim back to bay
its time to change
babygirl its time to change...



- jada hollywood

The Heavy Truth.

let me tell you a few things about life & people

- try to realize that theres a huge difference between what you think is right & what the world thinks is right

- your parents actually know alot, as much as you would like to cuss em out every 2 seconds, we only been here approx ... 15, 16 , 17 years. my moms almost 40 ... she has a few on me

- highschool is a temporary fixx, when your 4 years are done. wholeeeeee different ball game foreal

- people will lie to you , break your heart and hurt your feelings.
suck that shit up !

- your going to have haters till the day you die , your going to get envied , your going to get dirty looks. learn to appreciate it cause it means you have something right goin on for you

- dont expect your friends to be there for you , even when youu fuck up .. some walk out but beware of those who walk in

- love? we know nothing... just know that . talk about love in a few years ... when your mature enough.

- those whom you love will start to die around you , generations before us are getting old & teens are poppin off bullets every hour.. so get used to funerals foreal

- life is beautiful just learn where to find it because sometimes your very own thoughts or circle of friends can ruin your dreams



.. thats all for now, more to come

- JadalynHollywood

the queen is back

wowwwwwwwwww( flava flav voice )
i havent been on this thing for a little while.

the past few weeks? full of S T R E S S
exams are currently in session & i got 2 more.

anywho.
say hello to Fendi's 2010 sandal,


peace & hair grease..

Chanel-Shanghai 2009/2010

wooowzers. i am SO in love with this new collection.
especially as to how i am doing my english assignment on Coco Chanel.

la la laa love it
-smooches!

My Ode to 2009

sooooo. mr.2009 ?
you are leaving. walking out of all our lives & never to be see again.
truth is , i wont miss you. nope...

there was too much i went through , so much pain to be felt , laughter shared, tears in the night and anger in my fists. the feelings were immense, my actions were insane. 2009 brought me stress, strain and failure but it also made me realize a few things about myself...more than a few. i will remember 2009, but i wont miss it. that's like asking to go back in the past for a 2nd chance and change things that were inevitable.

#in the year 2010
- i will turn 18 years young. "adult" in legal terms. this brings on so much responsibility that many do NOT understand, but in the eyes of our elders.they are watching us , slowly dropping their hands and help. our parents see our habits and progress. our mothers birthed us with hopes we will make them proud. 18 years of age? i figure its time to cut my bullshit out before it bites my own ass a few years from now. that's why i am not a NEW girl , just an IMPROVED woman. i can only hope these people take me seriously from here on out. if you could UNDERSTAND where im coming from? you'd understand why i am speaking like this now. life is not about the money and cars... set a flame to that? and its gone. time to grasp the meaning of this life before it fades, all it takes is 1 second to lose it all.

not only will i be a legal adult( not that the title changes me that much, im already beyond my years), i will be graduating from school, be a godmother, have my car(very soon) & be moving on from my bad habits. no longer will they break me, ive learned better and have seen the outcome. not a good look.

in terms of love&relationships? my emotions have been played with too much so i'll be on the lookout for that one. the one who can change my mind about love and who has his head on straight like a gentleman instead of a dumb fool that loves my body before my mind.

i will remain calm, open-minded & humble towards whatever occurs from here on out. i will continue to praise God with my life for giving me another day , another second of breath because i dont take that for granted , when you are blessed and blind - your success will not survive. i dont owe it to society to be thankful, only man i can thank is the Lord for how far i've come .. wow.

so, 2009? i send you on your way with a million kisses & embrace 2010 with open arms.
xoxo.

- Jadalyn Hollywood