My Ode to 2009

sooooo. mr.2009 ?
you are leaving. walking out of all our lives & never to be see again.
truth is , i wont miss you. nope...

there was too much i went through , so much pain to be felt , laughter shared, tears in the night and anger in my fists. the feelings were immense, my actions were insane. 2009 brought me stress, strain and failure but it also made me realize a few things about myself...more than a few. i will remember 2009, but i wont miss it. that's like asking to go back in the past for a 2nd chance and change things that were inevitable.

#in the year 2010
- i will turn 18 years young. "adult" in legal terms. this brings on so much responsibility that many do NOT understand, but in the eyes of our elders.they are watching us , slowly dropping their hands and help. our parents see our habits and progress. our mothers birthed us with hopes we will make them proud. 18 years of age? i figure its time to cut my bullshit out before it bites my own ass a few years from now. that's why i am not a NEW girl , just an IMPROVED woman. i can only hope these people take me seriously from here on out. if you could UNDERSTAND where im coming from? you'd understand why i am speaking like this now. life is not about the money and cars... set a flame to that? and its gone. time to grasp the meaning of this life before it fades, all it takes is 1 second to lose it all.

not only will i be a legal adult( not that the title changes me that much, im already beyond my years), i will be graduating from school, be a godmother, have my car(very soon) & be moving on from my bad habits. no longer will they break me, ive learned better and have seen the outcome. not a good look.

in terms of love&relationships? my emotions have been played with too much so i'll be on the lookout for that one. the one who can change my mind about love and who has his head on straight like a gentleman instead of a dumb fool that loves my body before my mind.

i will remain calm, open-minded & humble towards whatever occurs from here on out. i will continue to praise God with my life for giving me another day , another second of breath because i dont take that for granted , when you are blessed and blind - your success will not survive. i dont owe it to society to be thankful, only man i can thank is the Lord for how far i've come .. wow.

so, 2009? i send you on your way with a million kisses & embrace 2010 with open arms.
xoxo.

- Jadalyn Hollywood